Spell PAIN.
Father, if this pain or circumstance is needed to fulfill your purpose and glory in my life or in another's, PLEASE DON'T TAKE IT AWAY.
It was painful. So painful that I cried when I was not supposed to cry. I realized I haven't cried like that for the longest time. Well, I mean I cry at church but because of love and happiness, not because of pain. And for that moment, I felt my knees tremble.
I felt betrayed and cheated.
I am telling you this to let you know not I am not Superwoman. I still feel pain. I still get hurt. I am still human. Yes I preached about how easy it is to let go. Yeah, it is. And that is what I am doing... This is my first step: MOURN.
At some point, I felt bitter... even hate.
BUT..
GOD IS SO AMAZING and GREAT BEYOND IMAGINATION.
I knelt down and cried out to Him for comfort.
Just as promised, I was embraced.
And how amazing He is, he turned my mourning into dancing.
Life on earth is a test.
I won't give in to the world, NO I WON'T GIVE IN.
I will never be shaken.
I won't compromise.
This isn't another EMO post.
This is one testimony of victory.
I just want you to know, OUR GOD IS ABLE. HE CAN TAKE THIS PAIN AWAY THAT INSTANTLY, BUT I WON'T ASK HIM TO TAKE THIS PAIN AWAY. If this is the price I have to pay in following Him, then let me feel this. This is just nothing compared to what He had done for us.
I know for some people, this is nonsense. This lacks details. I just felt the need to write this.
By the way, I just got back from our Encounter God Retreat and this is just a sneak peek.
I can't post Saturday Fashion and Sunday Review cause I don't have enough time. But I'll have all my time on Monday.
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