I wish I was somebody else right now. I really don't wanna be in this state. I am drowning and I needed to be saved. I don't wanna wake up cause each day is always another day of survival. This is just too much to bear. The pain is consuming. It is eating me whole. I don't wanna be like this. I need reasons to live. I wanna be convinced that it's better to live than to die. Cause right now I don't wanna live. I don't wanna live like this.