God never leaves.

I was confused. He answered.

Now I understood.

Lately I am losing my track, losing my focus.

Last night I almost broke down, I almost lost my self control.

He showed me that following Him will never be easy.

Luke 9:23

Then he said to them all: "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross  DAILY  and follow me."

He said we should take up  our cross, turn from our selfish ways not just once in our lives... but daily. And I am guilty. In my devotion today, this is what he said...

Philippians 3:8-17

New International Version (NIV)

8 What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in[a] Christ—the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith. 10 I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead.

12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

Following Paul’s Example

 15 All of us, then, who are mature should take such a view of things. And if on some point you think differently, that too God will make clear to you. 16 Only let us live up to what we have already attained.

 17 Join together in following my example, brothers and sisters, and just as you have us as a model, keep your eyes on those who live as we do.

A reminder to stay focus. For me not to create curve lines but to get it straight. And I will try my best to stay on track with His guidance. Whatever people might say... They may judge me for one mistake. But God knows my heart. Thats what matter's most. I just have to pray and to meditate on His words day and night. 

And this is my prayer:

Thank you Father God for not leaving my side.

For reminding me that You are my purpose in life.

Thay You are my way. That You are my everything.

I love You so much and I'll stay forever in Your way.

Your Daughter, 

Shine.